Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Merry Christmas! one and All!

This is something I never posted, but after a year on the shelf I feel like sharing hahah written on December 23rd 2009, I think I was in Utah with Mele'Ofa. I wish I knew what I had just watched. Oh Whale. WARNING; RAGING RANT LIKE POST TO FOLLOW


hahah the world is such a terrible place these days, bad manners and no morals are becoming norm, and they are getting special labels to say that it is in
Fact Not their fault. That its genetic, or psychotic, or some other dumb assery, and that they have no control over it.


To them I say!



BS BRO.




I Believe that in Life we have choices, Oh so many in a lifetime. Some are to do with love, others are to do with behavior, and many many others more to do with various other things that we encounter and experience in life.

I just watched a video about a fellow who is a self proclaimed psychopath, and I am sorry sir, but you are just an Ass, a Man of much inconsiderateness, A Dirty, scheming, "me" and "I" bettering kind of guy. If you are this kind of person, OK (its not really, but you get me), you are, but the least you can do is ADMIT that you are an Ass, and don't go on about how you can't help it; long ago for some reason you decided to kill Jiminy Cricket, or at least bury him alive since he cant die. It made you feel better about all the bad things you did or felt (or that were maybe done to you, that makes the choice harder, but it is still a choice) and all the people you hurt, and with the gaping void in your heart and brain and soul you thought it felt good to do these bad things, when in fact all you were doing was feeding the black hole that consumes all light and only gets bigger and bigger and bigger and consumes EVERYTHING, first you and then the people who are unfortunate enough to be around you (or is it the other way around?).


Hmmm Thats what I think, but I really am at a loss for affectionless psychopaths, OOP not anymore, I just googled it to see how to spell it and read some informations, and yep, This is What I think




Concerning Love. Most people in this world don't think they have a choice in who they love,


To them I say!



You are Sorely mistaken! sure this science business of "hormones" and "ideal mate" and "genetics" and "animalistic" "behaviours" that seek out the "alpha male" seems to sweep away the idea that we have a choice, but Guess What! We humans have brains that allow us to "go" "against" our "natures"! meaning that we can choose to become idiots that follow Our Carnal sinful minds, or we can choose to be ... stubborn? hahaha and do what is better for us than to be animals, since we are conscious and have memories and usually morals and are not made to be like animals.... Anyways


Most Everything in life is a choice, Certainly there are factors that affect the choices and decisions we make That seem to take our choice away
(sickness death other such big things) but Guess what Bucko! We ALL signed up for this hahahah



And so, after all my unholy judging of the human race, I say!


Go on in Faith, and always remember every day we have choices to make

Monday, December 7, 2009

I'm Sorry, but I just HAD to! hahahaha

I had a Dream, it was a wonderful dream. Let me tell you about it! (hopefully as accurately as possible, in the dream sense, so it shouldn't make much sense, but it was so awesome HAHA)







I'm at a movie premier, I don't know the place in reality, reminded me of P'boro theatre though. There is a huge line to see some big movie, I am walking around the line looking for someone. The line is outside the theatre (thats how big it is) and I am simultaneously thinking "STUPID PEOPLE! YOU ARE IN MY WAY!" and "where oh where is he?". Im in a fancy purple dress thats all.. hmmm fancy hahaha


dream shift to inside theatre, I found the person I was looking for, and my dream self goes "oh, its Kellan Lutz" because I didnt really know who it was i was looking for (hahahaha).



We are facing each other and holding both hands, in a weird olden days sort of way (we are also dressed in said fashion). I say "this is boring, its too crowded" and he replies "please, its not! i promise" and I say "no, its too crowded" we start pushing out of the crowded movie theatre that looked like peterborough cinemas, me leading the way.



Dream shift to a restaurant with a setting sun, laughter and fun times. Dream shift to something else, we are standing there waiting for something and Kellan Lutz says "We should get married!" and I'm Like "WHAT THE HECK?? No Way" and he's like "Why Not? think about it okay?" and he walks off. I start to think " OH NO! WHAT IF NO ONE WANTS TO MARRY ME!" meaning maybe i should marry him cuz no one else will marry me (HAHAHA I dont think like that in reality, That is Absurd! who wouldnt want to marry me??? HAHA I KID! I mean its an absrud reason for getting married). So after a walk around and some hard core brow furrowing and lip nawing I change my mind and think "We Should Get married!" because of reasons i will not disclose... HAHAH ok, because in my dream I was like- Oh gosh, this sounds so sappy, IT WAS A DREAM OK??? its so sappy its embarissing for my immature mind to think about (in conscienousness HAHA)- but my reasoning was "I Love him, he loves me, We want to spend forever together, and it feels right." So I go off to find him and he says "Too late, I married your best friend Lucy"

I KID I KID! hahahah that would have been hilarious though huh? So in dream reality I just have a smile on my face like "yeah!" and jump in the air with a frozen pose of me doing VICTORY!- hahahah i kid about the frozen pose and victory- Dreamily (magicaly, but since its a dream its dreamily) Everyone know and Bang dream time its about 6 or so months later and the wedding is a day or three away and i am starting to get cold feet and thinking "I cant do this, I cant do this, I cant do this, I cant do this" etc.etc. walking around with a terrified look on my face.

We just had the whatever reharsal (dinner? cuz there was cheersing and blablablaing and Mr. Lutz(groom to be) was speeching to the crowd(seated at table, likea U shape) and we were both standing and linked armed..) and after the final "cheers ok wahoo thats over" I briskly walk out into the hallway and nearly fall over as i hyperventalate and have a panic attack and do the "I cant do this" bit while holding my face as i breathe uncontrollably and slump against the wall. somehow i get to my room area while leaning on the wall and breathing and talking as i have said. the rehearsal was at a hotel and we were staying at the hotel and all the women were in one part and all the men were in another part that was the farthest from the womens quarters(some sort of tradition). Its this circular room with cicular areas that went around the main area, like a flower, but there arent any doors, or doorways, its all very open with drapey material (would make you think of a harum HAHA but it wasnt).

so some grandmother comes over and is like "poor dear, so .." cant put into words. I dont know whos grandmother she was, but she wasnt mine haha I guess that makes her his.

Dream shift to the next day, the wedding day. The grandmother takes me somewhere else in a van(there is a driver, she isnt the one driving). When we get there I jump out in all my wedding regalia and I go to the grandmother and hold her hands in mine saying "thank you So MucH!" near tears because my feet were so cold hahaha and I think she is letting me leave. she says "its ok" and I walk over to the house that we arrived at and walk inside. The grandmother calls out to people and I'm like "I wonder who is here..?" AND KELLAN LUTZ JUMPS OUT! SHE TRICKED ME! hahahahha I kid I kid, Then the Jonas Brothers boys heads pop out the windows and they are like "Hey!!" and im like "wtf(udge)" just kidding, thats what my real brain would thought, my dream brain was like "yay!"

So I gayly (this is the only word I can think of that would describe the way I went inside, the old use of course) go inside and plop myself on the couch expecting to be pampered and loved and allowed to forget all the wedding stuff. Kevin plops on the couch next to me (I KNOW! shockingly I know their names, the Jonas Bros that is.. ) and asks "Why so glum pretty lady?" (I may or may not have added the pretty lady hahahaha) So I go "Well..!" in the most pathetic "have pity and sympathy on me" sort of voice and ramble on about my story of whats happened. Nick was upstairs periodically showing his face from the balcony/banister that was above the living room asking questions and making remarks, Kevin was sitting on the couch next to me going "uh-huh" every now an again, and Joe was in the kitchen making scrambled eggs coming into the living room every now and again with the pan and spatula asking a question or making a remark.

When I finally finish telling the story they start asking me questions in earnest and making me rethink my thoughts, so i start saying "uh-huh" as Kevin and Nick Question me. After a time of doing this I hit my fist to my Hand and say "You're Right! I'm so silly! I have to get back to the Wedding!" and start to worry because I dont know how, but then the Grandmother comes in and is all "Ready to go boys?" and the Jonas Brothers all go "Yeah" as they grab instruments. And I'm Like " WHAT? you Tricked me?? OH Well LETs GO!"


And So Ended my Dream, Me sitting on the The Jonas Brothers couch with them convincing me to marry Kellan Lutz. hahahahahahaha good times


Best dream i ever had, better than the one about Rain HAHAHAHAHAH



I dont REALLY dream about Famous people, my dreams just plaster the famous face to the character. Cuz as Awesome as I'm sure Kellan Lutz is, I don't think he was Actually that person(seeing as I dont actually personally know him so cant say this or that about his personality). Who Knows? BUT the Jonas Brothers Were the Jonas Brothers if you skil hvad eg a vid

Anywho this was something I just HAD to share with the world(rather you guys, but you are my world so it Is the World! hahaha), because it was such an awesome dream hahahah But as I was typing this up I thought maybe I shouldnt post it. Thinking about it, I realised it would be really creepy if some random dreamt about me, its really creepy to have a stranger dream about you.... But then I realised it wasnt actually him.. i... dreamt about, ... I felt.. better about it?


HaHaHa oh well! better out than in! hahahaha

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Yes it is.. This is Rain.


TODAY WAS SO GOOD!!!
I woke up and thought something was strange about the windows, then I saw whiteness and went WAIT A MINUTE!
It snowed again, IT hasnt snowed in like two weeks, the snow was all stale and yuck, but It Snowed today! hahah great! But I was scared because it might hinder the movie outing, but it didnt WOOHOO!

I am just never gonna get over it, I read the first few chapters of new moon just for a whole lets have remembery times so I can pretend to compare. WELL! it was so worth it, OH My GOODNESS I LOVE THAT MOVIE! I would recommend reading the book just so you can appreciate the AWESOME NESS OF CHRIS WEITZ! so good, I love it, I love it I LOVE it! Ten million times better than Twilight, Even the sparkling was better, oh gosh, SO GOOD! I want to watch it many more times so that I can have it burned into my brain. so unbelievably good.
I really enjoy chris weitz work, I liked golden compass, I LOVE New Moon, Too bad he isnt doing eclipse. That guy has got some awesomeness to work up to. I am really curious what'll happen with eclipse, cuz i've heard some funny things about this fella, And he's english. I've only heard of hard candy and 30 days of night, I havent seen them but I wanted to when I first heard about them hahaha they are probs bad though hmmm
WEll as I was watching New Moon I thought to myself "I dont want to see Breaking dawn as a movie" it would be too much for my precious eyes hahaha I REALLY dont want to know Bella and Edward, Ya Dig? hahaha I dont want to see a pregnant Bella, Shes so small! hahahah maybe I'll change my mind after eclipse. I also wondered how they would End it, GREAT STUFF I TELL THEE
But there were these annoying teenagers behind me that WOULDNT STOP TALKING, and laughing and saying dumb things! like first they were all "EW hes so Ugly" about Jacob, and let me tell you, He WAS not, and then they were all "EW he's so Ugly" about Edward, Then they said "Ew he's so Ugly" about the whole wolf pack, then they said "Ew He's Ugly" about all the vampires, BLOODY NORAH! and then they say "ahhh he's so hot!!" guess who about? LAURENT! WHAT THE *^*&$*&@(#&4*7%$ CURSE WORDS anywho, after all this ugly calling they are like "dont go for him go for him!" it was like WHAT THE FETCH, SHUT UP KIDs! and in the begining they were like "WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON, I HAVENT READ THE BOOKS WHAT IS THIS??" I was like, are you spastic??? ugh, such retards, make sure your children arent retards like that when they go watch movies Ya?
Anyways, IT WAS STILL AWESOME
awesomawesomawesomawesomawesomawesomawesomawesomawesomawesomawesomawesomawesomawesomwe
RECOMMENDED!
I totally feel for this guy

Military Chief Executive Fuhrer President King Bradley

HAHAHA look at that Title! its totally awesome, makes me laugh hard core hahahahah Its the title of the leader in the manga (Japanese word for comic book, pretentious English word for the genre of comic books in the Japanese style) I am reading called FullMetal Alchemist! totally good. But I bet they just call him military president in the anime (shortened form of Animation given to a genre of animation that tends to be of Asian Origin, and more for older children and adults HAHA sounds scary huh??? hahahah it is. ) or something boring like that.

I like the manga better than the anime! the story is much more awesome, and flows better in my opinion. In the Anime they make Edward a snively nosed snot faced kid! What THe HeCK??? he is so much awesomer than that, so much more.





Anywho, this post is about my outrage at the LANDMARK CINEMA ORGANISATION IN FORT MCMURRAY!

So last Saturday I stopped by the ONLY movie theatre in fort mcmurray to see if they were selling tickets for new moon, Yep, and ON THE 19TH! so great. I am unsure if I should get tickets NOW! or later after consulting my movie companion. I decide later, Why Oh Why?? haha anywho I ask how many tickets they have left for the Thursday and she says a huge number that is probably all of them so I'm like its KO, ill go Monday!

Jolly me, I get sick and am not feeling well so I cant get to the theatre till Wednesday, I drive by TWICE! and neither times is it open. I am frustrated and OutRaGED! I then go on the website to get the number, I call MANY TIMES (at Different times, not one after the other hahaha), but no one answers, I am getting PRETTY pussed (rhymes with must, its a Kiwi word HAHAHA) But my movie buddy calls on her way home from work to see if i got the tickets, I say I tried, but it was closed. She Goes to the movie theatre, its evening, 5:30 ish, ITS STILL CLOSED!

already long story shorter, We didn't get tickets! we went on Thursday to see, and they had a sign on the door saying it was sold out till Saturday! I am like EFF YOU FORT MCMURRAY! I TRIEDDD, and my movie buddy is pretty much the same. so we go in and buy tickets to the Saturday noon ish showing, ITs Cheaper! hahaha

So after the initial realisation (something I was in Denial about, but with two high schools, OF COURSE IT WOULD BE SOLD OUT! hahahaha) I'm like meh I don't care, you can go away New Moon! and Fort McMurray TOO!!!! but really I didn't really care, I was actually planning on sitting this one out, since I am saving money, but you know me I CANT!@ hahahahhaha so I am going TOMORROW! or today, yeah later today because its late in the night, early in the mornin!

So I better get some sleep huh?? so I don't fall asleep during New Moon! but I am sure it will be too awesome for my eyes to close hahahah

AnywhoAys!


P.S. I emailed the movie theatre in bitterness to find out WHEN THEY WERE OPEN! and they are only open in the evenings and weekends, WHADAFADA! That totally sucks, This place is such a butt crack! but its ok, I'll be less inclined to go see movies I guess... TEARS! hahahaha I used to be a movie dork, seeing Whatever LAme movies to my hearts content!!! with my trusty side kicks LEte and Toni! (Formerly Maliana, until she LEFT EY?) and the sometimes visitor Henry, Rarely did he come, unless it was something Awesome like Twilight (LAWL he totally came and raged around with us, what a funny) Anywhoo this place probably doesn't even show Awesome less huge MovieS! ahhh the torture...

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

you bring tears to my eyes

SOOOOOOOO!! Today was Great, I had the day off because the Mamma had to take the boy to a Doctors appointment. So I spent the day watching HEROES! and washing my clothes and cleaning my room, and unclogging my toilet, and exercising. Great Times! Today was a wonderful Day!!!



Over the weekend Me and Lisette (the Mamma) were chatting about eyebrows and getting them done, she gets hers Threaded and Since I've never had it done professionally She said We should go sometime her treat, I was Like BOOYA! hahahah I thought it would be totally awesome. So today she called and made appointments for today and we went. IT WAS PAINFUL, shocking to my eyes, I wasn't going "boohoo that hurts" My eyes were just tearing and there was the funny noise your brain makes in your ears when it is bracing itself with pain. interesting times.


So here is a before (I couldn't really find any, this is the best i think):





And here is a similar looking after:


I like it, its cleaned up the edges, was quick, not too bad, I think it was worth it. the skin tingles for a bit afterwards, interesting sensation.




Here's a further away picture haha





A few posts ago I mentioned my hair, Mele'Ofa asked how It was when it was straightened, Well here are some pictures


This is my face






This is my face too hahahah




So it straightens alright, but my hair has always straightened alright. My hair needs a cut so I cant really comment on what its like.














OK so there's enough pictures of me in this post to last a life time, So I will End it

p.s. I think i have pneumonia, I can feel a coldness in my chest. its similar to how a deep laugh feels when it begins, but its a cough, and it doesn't want to come hahaha I am a dramatic hypochondriac after all

Saturday, November 14, 2009

I couldnt comprehend the saddness of the situation until i said it out loud

If ever you are feeling crabby (the fob kind too) or blue, or green, or red, or yellow I would highly recommend gearing up and going for a walk, its marvelous. If ever I am feeling crabby or blue, or green, or red, or yellow and I go for a Walk, It Always makes me feel better! it doesn't necessarily make the situation better, But I feel better. It always makes me smile.

I Love walking, It clears your head as well as your perspective. You see all the wonderful creations of our Heavenly Father and can't help but feel blessed.

If you're still feeling orange, or gray, or white, or pink Than pick up a Book! Any Book! make sure its a good one though, and not a crappy popular one that has no real quality or substance to it. I'd recommend the Book of Mormon, That one gives Much clarity and calm to the troubled mind, Every Time.

When I get a bit crazy from life All I need to do is go for a walk and start reading, It Always makes me feel better. It helps to clear my head and I stop concentrating on myself and start to remember there are other people in this world. Sometimes its good to be simple

HaHaHa!

Sunday, November 8, 2009

VÁ Á Á Á Á Á Á Á Á Á Á Á Á Á Á Á Á Á Á !

Yesterday was a GReat day, I got my int. licence, my liberry card and TCM STARTED to be on the Telly!... Yeah That was Great! hahahaha

Slowly slowly slowly my mind is solidifying into an Adult, isnt it scary, and such a tragedy!



My plans and future are becoming more interesting and concrete, its rather exciting hmmm

I am gonna start going to the Library a lot, so much so that soon I will have read all the books and seen all the movies and shows, and I'll be on first name basis with the crabby liberry ladies, YEAH! and I was thinking about buying Wellies! but I think I might loose my toes (and feet) if I just bought wellies, and not Proper Snow/winter boots, What do you think? I havent seen snow for near 6 years now so I have no idea. Wellies are Gum Boots, FYI. I've always wanted a pair, but sillily I never Bought one! shocking I know.


HahaHA there is a movie on TCM about bull Fighting in mexico, its Exciting! and there is a guy trying to impress the girl that he (and she) has been brought up to think to marry, but she loves someone else, and the crowd is shouting "GRI-NGO! GRIN-GO! GRI-NGO!" so funny

Anyways, i'm starting to get the inside crazies, so I was thinking of going for a walk, I hope I dont get eaten by a bear... Oh Well!


p.s. WHERE DO YOU GET ALL YOUR PIMPIN pages from? I need to pimp my page, but I am so lazy hahaha