Monday, January 25, 2010

everybody was waiting

I am a Human being. Because of this unavoidable fact I find Perfection to be a flaw; Hum, Not a Flaw per se, but something that I do not want, in a Spouse that is....

When I was in Calgary over the holidays I went with Henry to a YSA FHE (huhuhu young single adult family home evening in case you did not be able to tell huhuhuh). As expected (they pretend it is not so, but it is) they talked about something or other to do with marriage, This time it was on Dating, more specifically the do's and don't's (...that seems grammatically incorrect, would it be better as do not's... HMMM) of dating. That's not my point though, We listened to some sort of radio broadcast (or something?) that was questioning Elder Bednar and his wife about how they dated, or got to know each other and how they are still married and what not. Some question was asked and it made Elder Bednar share a story.

He said that many a time YSA's (and stuff) will always come up to him and ask him "what kind of qualities should I look for in an eternal companion" and he said that he was always shocked by this question beCAUSE!

(he used some powerful words that would make your jaw drop(they made my jaw drop), but I cant remember the exact words so I will make some up hahaha)

Who are these audaciously conceited people who are looking for the best qualities in their spouses when they are far from perfect?

hahaha I was shocked because in young womens they always make you write out lists of things you want in your future spouse(something i never enjoyed doing because it was weird and awkward for me) hahaha but then it made me laugh because its very true, Who are these Audacious people??? Certainly not me(hoohoohoo), I deny being one because When I think about a future spouse I don't have these beauteous lists of amazing qualities, I think more along the lines of what I am; even though I am a weak little human of imperfection I think it would be more fun to have a companion of a similar level rather than having someone who is far "superior" or more righteouser (hahaha this is a worldly layman look at my reason, I wont go into further detail)

I don't know if that is a bad way of thinking... but... that's how i think....

Friday, January 8, 2010

the Actor and the Housewife

ok, so I know I just posted my life story, and it was long, But I really need to whine about this book. So Far I am Hating it, very much, with much passion.

I am REALLY hoping that this woman gets hit with the Idiot stick (the housewife character, not the author, but who knows, maybe i will disagree later), Really Hard, and then the Reality stick, and then the Realisation of own stupidiotsy stick. flippin eck she makes me rage, I find her behaviour so .. If she were a real human being and close to me I would say offensive, but at the moment her actions are just so Stupid and annoying to me.

Shes a married woman who says she loves her husband so very much and her kids and blablabla and yet she is hanging out with this "Gorgeous Superstar" man (literally, the man is her modern day hearthrob who she admittedly had a crush on before she(and during in my opinion) met and fell in "friendship" with him) that makes her heart do funny things like beat faster, and every time he or she calls the other, she gets all giddy. Ya see, if she were a single not married with children gal, I would call her moronically in denial for saying this was not the budding seeds of love, and since she is a married woman with children I would say she is so unbelievably stupid it hurts my brains to look at the book.

I just dont know, I dont want to continue reading this book. I am a really(most would say overly hahaha) sensitive person (hahahah it sounds funny to me, but its mega True hahaha) and the book offends my senses. The character is a Member, and she just makes me cringe. She is supposed to be a female Utah mormon type, but not really. Now Really, How many are there of those?? I am not sure I know any, or have encountered any (Just in Case you didnt realise but Mele'Ofa isnt one, Fer dang sure hahaha) And then she is so down on herself, thinking she is of the plain types, and that there would be no reason for this ultra good looking guy to ever fall for her. Ugh, she seems to have the sense of a teenager, the devil likes to tempt us, Every One! irregardless of how plain we think we are, or highly unlikely a situation might be. and then when they(actor and housewife) are together they think they are so witty with their sarcasm and put down business. When they tell people lies because they think it is funny, that is just mocking them! Who do they think they are to act so superior, just gets on my nerves.

It all just offends my senses so, but I feel obligated to read the whole thing, to give it a chance to ... get better... I think someone read it, but i am not sure. i will go look on the goodreads. pewpewpew if you've read it, what do you think? i tend to be overly sensitive about things, and so overly dramatic, I am a very much so like that type of person

Oh the Cleverness of Me!!

sooooohoooooohooooooo I went to Utah for Christmas, I dont know when or what my last post was, and I am too lazy to go see (hoohoohoo), but I am pretty sure it was in Utah...

Okay so many great and wonderful things have happened!

Utah was supa fantasticsh! Dustin and Mele'Ofa got me PREZZIES!!! and they were Awesome prezzies, and i did use them much. WOOHOOO THANKS GUESS!! and then Melisa AND Miriam sent Christmas Cards! or rather the Wileys and the Reeves'(..?) WITh Writing To Me!!! AND THEN! Maliana Sent me a Pressies Through MAMMA!!! AND THEN!!! MAMMA GAVE ME A PRESSIES FROM HALDORA! she made some sokkasko... innisko... I can never remember what they are called, and mamma gave them to me!!!!!! just when I needed Them!! Because mamma made me a pair, but I obviously made them holey so Ya!!!

every thing was so great this year! because I wasnt expecting much of anything hohoho but I got SOO MUCH!!! and i didnt give anything either, which makes me feel Terrible since I got all these amazing things! I am a bit of a lazy bugger like that , but Christmas Cards are SOOO COOOOL, I want to send them, when I become more level headed (teehee procrastination mucho?)

my last night in Utah Mele'Ofa wanted to go out to eat, and asked where I wanted to go. Me being the uncultured lout I am Had No Idea what to suggest, So I said I wanted to go somewhere Reallly Utahy, so That I would forever remember the Utah (hahaha I love being a tourist!). SO we went to Crown Burgers (or Burger Crown, something with crown) food for dinner, I got a crown burger and rice pudding juice (hahahah it Really does taste like that!) which I shared with Miaya, Who Loved it! and wanted more hahaha

We then headed towards Temple Square, and Miaya had a Crazy Attack on the way; it was so funny! the parents thought it was the juice talkin hahahahah the Mexican Rice pudding juice hahahaha she was telling everyone to Shut Up and Everything! hhahahhahaha it was so Funny! she calmed down though hahaha

Temple square was SO AmAzinG! just walking around that place I could really feel The Spirit, and it reminded me of the true meaning of Christmas. Such a Great Thing.

So the New Year is Upon Us! WOO I just realised this is my first post of the year, the eighth.. not too shabby. So The New Year always forces me to take a look back at the past year, and to examine all the things that I did or did not do, and This Year I am wanting to do some things. I don't want to call them resolutions because that word fills me with loathing and hatred, I am sure if I looked it up and read the etymology I might not be so filled with these feelings, but cest la vie.

sOOOOO The first thing I want to laga is my Brain! over the past few years it has become so despicably racist! of course I don't think "stupid *insert race/racial slur*! can't *insert racist accusations*!" But I think its as good as. My brain jumps to conclusions and marks individuals and their behaviours and appearances all too quickly, than places them all in the so and so box because of this that or the other. but the really stupid thing is that it isnt just race, it could be anything, such as Age, Sex, clothes, cars, shoes, socks, glasses, animals, food, hair, books, oh its terrible! so its not just racism, its more I judge and generalize WAY TOO MUCH! I shouldnt do it at all! I should just let my brain explode with the information overload of having everyone in their own pen, rather than all in a similarity boxes.

I think it is mostly because I have become lazy, in the sense that I dont want to have to think of people as Individuals, rather groups of similarity people.

oh how I Hate it! I've become such a ... {Split? halved? lost? confused? lazy? bum? Broken?} sort of a person, I'll let you chose one.

Its hard to explain, but there is an image in my head of a circus stage with a water tank that is halved. There is a ladder behind the tank and a man standing on top of it holding up another tank that is smaller than one of the halves of the big tank, but full of Water. The person is pouring the water into the halves, and not being too careful about it. I am that third tank, being poured carelessly into the halves. DOESNT MAKE SENSE!!! Why Pour the little water tank into two bigger ones??? isnt it better to keep it WHole in the original???? hahaha What a strange image, and it wont go away.

Anywho, That is one of the things I will be working on, Not Judging and labeling others, but its so hard, especially in todays society when people dont want to be different hahaha, but hasnt it always been so? its hard because my mind is set to Auto label, I WILL CONQUER!! VICTORY!!!! (teehee my favourite