SOOOOO lately I have been letting the devil Trick Me!!! into feeling overwhelmed!! I've been nearly falling over with thoughts of heavy burdens, and too much responsibility, but during brief moments of Clarity I see that the burdens are Light! and that Everything is possible, and I just need to be patient and have faith.
ugh, im such a silly goose sometimes. I think I have aquired depression, or maybe I have had it all along but it was slightly dorment because of The Awesome Support Systems (a.k.a. Family) I have had throughout my life, but now that they have all visibly to my human eyes diaspeared, the once dorment depression Creeps out every now and again. Thats another thing I am being tricked with! I let gloomy, sad and terrible thoughts tiptoe into my mind and sometimes i can barely keep my head on my shoulders because it is so filled with empty.
I had a Really bad day some days ago, it was so bad I didnt care about anything, and wanted to just go lie in a hole and stop existing. Then I wondered if I was getting sick, and if that was why I felt that way, and I wondered if that was how Males felt when they were sick, and if so then I would allow them to act like babies all they want since it was such a horrible feeling.
Freakishly enough I can be Super happy one moment, On top of the world! for no reason at all, and then i'll feel this emptiness, bara tóm. and i'll be feeling unsociable and not like talking to anyone.
I'm just so melancholy sometimes.
But I feel like I just need to get my life in Order, slowly slowly I am getting there, one silly thing at a time, then I will get to the Important stuff hahaha
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