Epiphany

I have discovered what it is I Love the most in this world. I have always wondered at myself and why I like the things I like, and it occurred to me that I love stories. In Every Way, Shape and Form I Love Stories. I Love Music, I Love Movies, I Love Legends, I Love Books, I Love History, I Love stories.

Feels good, knowing why I like so many strange things; I've never really been a movie buff, or a music nerd, or a History fanatic, or a REAL bookworm, but I loved them all nonetheless, and now I know why. These different media forms all tell stories, and that is why I Love them so. I get it, even if perhaps you don't. I am content, feels as though I can finally see something that was there all along, but for some reason I just could not make it out.

Now I know what to tell people when they ask me what I like.

어떻게!

I tHINK!! I think I think I think, I am looking for something that doesn't exist for me!

so I never thought of myself as a silly useless chit that thought too much about stupid things, BUT I WAS WRONG!!! I think I have subconsciously(or was IT?? I think nooooot) been looking for something that doesnt exist for everyone!

That's right! the stupid idea that a prince in knighting armour will appear and say "I've been searching for you all my life, MARRY ME!" I don't REALLY want that, but I seconsciously am looking for someone who will say "I want to give you everything in the world, you don't have to do anything, just breath". Like I told maliana that I really like the proposal that the chubby boy makes in cinderella's sister (korean Drama), he says "I'll give you everything I have and support you in everything you want to do.." and so on and so forth, even going so far as to not care that she didn't love him that way haha I know its really selfish, but I like it! haha but not REALLY, just the idea of it, having a lackey who would do anything you wanted.

Alas! I am such a person! a despicable girl! who uses all the people who bring it upon themselves, I personally think thats how the world goes around, people love people and they do all they can for them, even though the person doesn't reciprocate. I like to think that's how I live, doing all I can for those I Love, wanting only their happiness and nothing more in return (lete and henry don't count keke) Here is one of my favourite stories that always comes to mind (along with a bunch of scriptures) When I think of love, and when people say strange things like "They will be paying you right?" or talk too much about money and material things

here's one for the germans!


and one for others (bleach music and allll)


and one for LETE AND MELEOFA!! kekeke WEIRD



And One for Elder Toutai!


OK I got a little carried away with one of my favourite Manga's...

But isn't that what love is supposed to be? Giving All, and wanting not in return. but a happy marriage is both people wanting that for each other keke

stormy weather

p.s. I totally got side tracked, the thing I was talking about when I was talking about being a silly chit is the whole "the first time I laid Eyes on her, I knew she was the one" you know, that sop fictitious sounding stuff, the typical drama/romcom/movie story how the guy becomes besotted by the girl and follows her around annoying her to death and you watch it and you're like "I WOULD SO NOT BE ANNOYED!" because he is a super good looking guy with lots of money and a pitiable story, What i'm meaning refuses to come out in sense. Anyways.

thinking about it, I would HATE that, I cant stand people actively trying to win my affection, I prefer the edward style, where you dont even know if he is trying or not (I watched eclipse for the first time the other day, still prefer New Moon, AWesomer musics!). Well, ya know, like an animal I don't like to be forced into things, coaxing is the best, thats what edward dids (I still don't know if he was sincere on the mountain, where jacob accused him of playing the game better...)!

Happy Mothers Day!

Today is mothers day! the sun is shining and its very nice outside! i got a rose at church in Maliana and Eyþórs ward haha coool beans.

i had a sunday nap, it was great!

I went on facebook to look at stuff and saw this, I like it very much. it made me very happy!

I love it very much! its so great and wonderful! its inspiring.

Something I got from this video is that in life we need to share, we have to speak, say what is going on happy or sad, good or bad, and give people the opportunity to sympathize, to understand. We cant just live in our heads and expect everyone else to understand. Sadly enough thats how i have been living my life all this time. I just dont trust people enough to tell them how i feel, thats something else I got from this video, we need to also listen. We need to share, but to listen in turn. If you want to love somebody you should listen to the things they have to say, who knows how long they have been holding on to their grief or pain, we need to have open hearts and hands, ready for people to trust us with their lives.

Like it says in Mosiah 18:8-9

Thats one of my favourite Scriptures! but scriptures are like colours for me, I like them all!! depending on how i feel or the day, this one more than that one! I like them alll, all the time! hahaha

and so I say to my mamma and all my lovely sister and all the mothers and potential mothers, Happy mothers day! you do the best work in this whole world.

Make sure you watch this video! its shockingly wonderful! it makes me happy.

How Do I Love Thee

blablabla the last blog entry was ten years long, sorry about that, i should blog better and not at the night time hahahah

BUT THIS ONES GREAT!!

i posted it on la facebook, but i want it here, so i can find it forever. Its a devotional at BYU february 15 2000, when i was like 10, holey canoli. anywho its called How Do I Love Thee by Jeffrey R Holland about how we should love. I like it very much, i want to love like that, the way the Saviour did, unconditionally, and so selflessly, not thinking about yourself at all, only wanting the best for the other

it even mentions my favourite play, OTHELLO!!!! and all the tragedy anywhos its here


toodles for noodles!

P.S. TWO SLEEPS TIL MALIANA AND ÆTOR GET HERE!!(one officially, according to time)

Mr. Gecko, You have Friends!

So There's a Mr. Gecko living on our screen door, and he always falls off at night to scare the crap out of wuss faces such as myself [HAHA I ent ashamed! by the by, if its found in these square brackets, its an aside of mine, HarHarHar commenting on my own thoughts]. So I was noticing the door was gaping open [it was about 12 am] and decided to go and see if my daddy was still out there, because I didn't hear a car leave, but I didn't think I noticed him come inside, and as I walk out Mr. Gecko drops at my feet and scares me, then I see three other gecko's climbing up the wall; Mr. Gecko Has Friends!


So today I went to the movies ALL DAY!!!! it was rather fun and exciting [minus the exciting, except for the rushing to get good seats, Mowing people down is one of the few things i live for (JUST KIDDING~!)] So We [the three youngest children] were to go to the movies at 9 a.m. ish, but at 8:30 a.m. ish [my alarm time for Every single day of the week, Ya!] I wanted to sleep an hour or two more, it was after all a holiday, and I hate to wake up early when I don't have to work hahaha. At 10 a.m. ish Toni Rocks up [our little homie G] and we all take about an hour to get ready, So we catch the 12.25 p.m. "The Day The Earth Stood Still" in cinema number FIVE[the largest screen in all of QLD]. After that movie we catch the 2.30[ish] p.m. Bedtime stories in Number FIVE AGAIn! our lucky day. The movie theatre has a free parking for patrons if you see a movie, but that is only valid for four hours, so I asked if it would be alright to watch the two movie and be good, the chick said ya sure but LEAVE STRAIGHT AWAY! so I go BOOya! and we watch that movie. Not wanting to push my luck I go validate my parking and park my car in another place across the road, [fideen dola fo 0-4 hour] Henry being my padna, and Lete and Toni getting the tickets.


Let me back track-

When bedtime stories finished me and Toni were quickly running out the seats and down the stairs to get out and validate the parking and get more movie tickets, with Lete close behind, but Henry being the weirdie he is goes out The other Way [we sat in the middle] and Up the Stairs to exit the cinema. Lete, Toni and Myself all comment on the weirdies behaviour and continue, not noticing that Lete walked back to get [or maybe she was just joining] the Weirdie, when we notice we wait a few moments and then think GEEZA LOU! what a hay! then we walk out and stand in line to validate parking so we can move car! We [Toni and I] see the two weirdies at the top of the stairs waiving frantically like crazy loons, so we start waiving like crazy loons back, telling them to get their hurry on butts down there! to get tickets! and then I notice what they are crazy Waiving, ITS THE MOVIE! Twilight was showing at 5 pm in a random little salur(isk) and there were only a FEW TICKETS LEFT!!!!!!!!!!! so I start frantiking even more for them to hurry, I give Toni my wallet and send her over to Lete and Henry, and wave for Henry to hurry to me so we can move the car!!!!! so I run out with Henry [parking validation complete] hoping Lete and Toni gets tha tickets! and I drive out with Henry, I then do a lap around the block just to make sure they got tickets, but I see [on a sign at the parking that is located across the street] that Twilight is SOLD OUT! so as I drive by the theatre again I see Lete and Toni crossing the road. Fearing the worst I slow and say You got tickets!? and they reply ya! and we all celebrate.


on track~!

I then park my car and me and Henry run back to the movies! we run up the steps and to the salur(isk) and jump in some seats near the front [but its okay because its a small screen so not really any difference where you sit in the Theatre]. We then relax to enjoy Twilight for the third time [shameful I know, but I gats ta make the dough to watch it hmmm??]. What a larverly day! I liked all the movies, Jasper the most [MAHAHAHAH] but Emmett is Super too!




So the Point, After watching The Day the Earth Stood Still I realized something, the Human Race is like Kath and Heathcliffe [I think thats they names, and I know nothing of the book, haven't read it yet, still looking for it after the move hahaha, but My knowledge is from Twilight, *BOOYAH!* I'll read it and be more accurate later. now, I be recklEsS] It is poo poo and disgusting, and should DIE, and not Be at all. But, It has another side to it [that's from the day the earth stood still, not Wuthering Heights]. Its only [imo] Redeeming Quality is Love [like Bella Saysd about the revolting couple], a Very heavy price, but it is completely worth it. All the Ugliness of mankind is washed away by its capacity [though sometimes very minute, But Who are we to Judge? Not a one at all] to Love. Even the evilest [to our thoughts and minds] of evil people can love, and I'm sure Do. Different lives, different people, we know nothing but presume we do. When we judge others, [most of us cant help it, its an automatic thing the mind does to handle the amount of information that it is receiving on a daily basis{stereotyping- to hard to remember every little thing about all the people you meet in your life, so you label them a put them into a box in your brain, Lazy? (learned that during my psychology stint, *BOOyAH!*)}] we are assuming the role of a knowledgeable being, and more often than not, We are not one.


This is Usually what all my favourite movies are about, They show how corrupt and debased the human race is, but then some one or thing shows the littlest bit of love (makes a huge-o sacrifice of some huge-o sort) and saves the erethang. The corrupt and debased is still there, but so too is the [seemingly sometimes wasted] Love and Sacrifice of the one [sometimes more] person. Lovely, gives my heart hope to think that there are other people in this world [aside from my family] who can imagine such things, Decency, love, humanity

One Day