When life Gives you Lemons, Cut them up and Throw them at lifes Eye.

SOOOOO lately I have been letting the devil Trick Me!!! into feeling overwhelmed!! I've been nearly falling over with thoughts of heavy burdens, and too much responsibility, but during brief moments of Clarity I see that the burdens are Light! and that Everything is possible, and I just need to be patient and have faith.

ugh, im such a silly goose sometimes. I think I have aquired depression, or maybe I have had it all along but it was slightly dorment because of The Awesome Support Systems (a.k.a. Family) I have had throughout my life, but now that they have all visibly to my human eyes diaspeared, the once dorment depression Creeps out every now and again. Thats another thing I am being tricked with! I let gloomy, sad and terrible thoughts tiptoe into my mind and sometimes i can barely keep my head on my shoulders because it is so filled with empty.

I had a Really bad day some days ago, it was so bad I didnt care about anything, and wanted to just go lie in a hole and stop existing. Then I wondered if I was getting sick, and if that was why I felt that way, and I wondered if that was how Males felt when they were sick, and if so then I would allow them to act like babies all they want since it was such a horrible feeling.

Freakishly enough I can be Super happy one moment, On top of the world! for no reason at all, and then i'll feel this emptiness, bara tóm. and i'll be feeling unsociable and not like talking to anyone.

I'm just so melancholy sometimes.

But I feel like I just need to get my life in Order, slowly slowly I am getting there, one silly thing at a time, then I will get to the Important stuff hahaha

Toodles for Noodles

Melanie!

Where are the books of old? and scarves so fair?

Woooooo! today I was looking at the mounds of leaves that are piling up out on the streets, and I was like "woah! when did the season change???" because without any warning it is autumn!! how and when did that happen?? haha I only noticed a change in temperature, not the change in the plants and world around me hahaha crazy pots!

Well, iceland is interesting as ever, as I was walking home from the bus stop after going to an english class with the missionaries with a friend from work I heard a loud noise outside the parliament, and so I HAD to go look at what was going on, and there were a bunch of people hitting their big metal drums(industrial kinds) and making loud noises without their voices, interesting, It could have been an art piece. I have no idea what they were mótmæling (i think that means protesting?) but it was fun to walk through. There were coppers errwhere.

I feel like I have been slumbering for too long, as if I have just woken up! haha sometimes, (quite often, especially when I travel and transition,) I forget myself, and i go through motions.

I forget what i like to do, what I enjoy, my hobbies and pass times, my favourite colours, my favourite books, my favourite foods, even my favourite country!! haha I think i just have months of downtime, where my brain goes into auto-pilot like in Click, Wierd, and dangery, who knows where I will end up living life in such a way! maybe thats how my brain deals with such insane country jumping. hahaha

but during down times, i can have a hard time remembering what country i am in, and what house I am in, and all my memories run together and I forget where and when things happend (rather than splitting my life up by time, like saying "oh five years ago" I say "Oh, Australia" and so forth). ahaha although it is a little disconcerting, I think its fun all the same.

im a tired bunny, so i will go to sleep now.

toot zients to ya!

When Everything feels like its falling apart, a dictionary appears

I've been in Iceland for four months and some days now. It was Great! and then everyone left. Hahahah now I have to start thinking and living.

Well, I am the Young Womens President, and the second coucellor in the YSA programme. Everything was going Super! and then it all crashed the day after lete and maliana left hahaha Its getting colder now. I don't Really know or understand why i am in Iceland, but Iceland needs me i think haha For now I am going to just work and save money for a year, till August, and fulfill my callings to the best of my ability. I'm gonna look into studying some time... in the future hahaha Well! this is Melanie out!

lazy lazy, i just need to start sometimes haha

This is what I did Yesterday

So Cool! the Korean Alphabet is one of the most scientific writing systems! and yet it is Steeped in "Oriental Philosophy" like Yin and Yang, its such an interesting language and alphabet. Did you know the letters aren't just random? So interesting!

These pictures are just what I did yesterday, the consonants and vowels. With each letter I wrote out the strokes and what order you do those in and also the pronunciations, but the ones for the consonants are written in american, whereas the vowels are in whatever I thought was more accurate with my Icelandic and English, since I could actually hear them.

WOOHOOO! now that I have Actually started its a lot easier than i was dreading haha. I am gonna make me some Flash Cards! and download some other help things for the consonant pronunciations. MIRIAM! you are good at studying, Any tips for flash Cards? hehe


Im Off to see a Wizard about a horse

Future Occupation

hahahaha I had an interesting dream last night, i can only rmemeber bits and pieces



So in this dream I am a workin lady, and I have a husband and children. At my job place they decide I am going to be transferred, this transfer is a HUGE promotion, and it is to NORTH KOREA! hahahahahahahahahahhah but before I can be transferred fully (my family and everyone) I have to pass their probationary period (the other company that i am being transferred to, i am gonna be like a consultant or sumsing). I am in a meeting with six or seven individuals, men and women, From this North Korean company, and They are testing to see if I am commi enough (HAHAHAH), They decide i would be an asset and so I go to North Korea for six months, working in whatever it is i am working, and They finally decide that I am satisfactory. My family can now move to North Korea and we can live there. So My family is arriving at the airport and as i wait for them to arrive I am in another meeting, it is similar to the one with North Korea, but these are South Koreans, and I'm a SPY!¨!!!!¨¨¨!!! the purpose of me being in North Korea is to spy and figure out something to do with uniting the Peninsula.


BAHAHAHA before you accuse me of watching too much Alias, I think this dream was inspired by a book I am reading called "The Three Day Promise" its a memoir of a Korean Soldier, its really interesting, and yeah, i was reading it before I went to sleep and so I think it seeped into my dream lands


hehehe I enjoyed the Dream very much.

Lechur

Today I went for a leisurely stroll, because when I walk it is never with the intent to go slow, and that is how I see that Phrase "leisurely stroll", walk slow. It was the perfect weather for it, a mild drizzle that became rain. It was very lovely, I watched a cruise ship disappear into the rain, baby duckies following their mommies, people fishing, puddles, grass, green. My usual apparel for rain is rolled up pants because I hate walking around with wet feet/socks/pants/shoes/legs, but today It was okay, because I realised I will be walking back home, and so I can change. So I walked in all the puddles, I examined all the starfish, all the rocks and grass. Today was a day of exploration and appreciation. I found a starfish, it seemed to be stuck to the pavement, i was a little sad, but then I thought of keeping it, but that made me sad/disgusted, so I plucked it off the ground and looked at it to see if it was alive at all, and then I dropped it into the ocean. They Have Starfish here? I watched it drift to the rocks, it was very pretty. and I could see it the whole time.

I am so odd, like my mamma I guess hahahah. When the Sun shines I am sad, but the clouds can always make it better! hahahaha odd nod

What Do You See?

Yesterday i was lost on the internets, to be more precise i was lost on the WongFu Productions youtube page hmhmhm. I had an interesting time discovering some new favourite things. I think these guys are very talented. They are these three guys who met in college and made videos together and now they are like a real indie thing.

It was so lovely. Yesterday I discovered this Short made by WongFu productions, directed by Wesley, one of the three.

It was so Lovely. I didnt want to share it on the facebook because I am selfish like this, when I find lovely things, I do not want to share, people are not worthy, I dont think they can appreciate wonderful things. its ok if they find it on their own, but I won't help them hmhmhm devilish.










After I watched this I was so ... swept away? I can't describe it, it was Lovely. It made me realize that I am not very creative these days! my brain is not thinking wonderful things that are interesting and colourful. my thoughts are Grey. I want to see colour.

I decided that once a Day I will look Up and ask myself "What Do You See?" .

I'm going to create another blog for this, it will be fun and the colours will pour back into my thoughts, I am sure!