there is a movie called last holiday, its pretty fun, for a once in a lifetime thing ahhaha I wouldnt choose to watch it again per se.
Anywhos! in that movie she has a book that she calls her book of possibilities, in it she puts all these possibilities that she wouldnt mind becoming realities. I really liked it. I want to do one! but I am a very strange person with all sorts of fears and what not. I have mentioned before that I do not like to make (at least known) plans, and so because of this thing of mine it is very hard for me to even think about making a book of possibilities. Plans are depressing.
BUT I AM A CHANGED PERSON!!! at least I am trying to change, I am trying to be less afraid of everything, and more not afraid. haha our lesson in relief society on sunday was on being a courageous. ... woman... I think.. thats what I heard anyways hahah
so anywhos, with my new courage, I am starting to see things differently, and do things differently. Unfortunately (but fortunately), I discovered that I am (was?) a very hopeless person, and so, Faithless! because the two go hand in hand, and if you dont have hope, its because you dont have faith! and the other way too.
So after I found out about my hopelessness I decided that That just isnt good enough, how can I ever find happiness if I have no hope for it? and no Faith that I can find it??? what a wild goose I was, but now I am working on that.
So back to the book of possibilities! I have decided that I am going to make one! (are you allowed to tear out pages and burn them?) but I can only start with silly insignificant things, and I will work my way up to not silly haha
anywhos My First thing ever in my book of possibilities will beee.... drumdrumdrumdrum
this is a lot easier than i thought it would be, so I think it will help me a lot in realising what I actually want in life
Good Day to you!
(here is a fun song I like)